Well just got back to calgary (canada) for over a week now, jet lag is slowly adjusting itself. Finally it seems like things are getting better now. It's actually quite stressful when I get back here, it seems like things start to pile up again... ugh, there are sooo much to do, it's very very annoying.

Today is actually... umm not so happy... first of all some relationship issues pops up again... it seems like someday it needs to be deal with... but... what's the best way le... umm need to see what's going on after...
After that it's my practicum placement.... ugh it's in the far deep south... wayyyyy to far from my place, it's sooo annoying, I wonder why the education department would do things like that... it's sooo annoying.. ugh it's sooo stressful to deal with this, I can see next semester would be hell to drive around everywhere, thankfully I like this car, but still.. booo

I sometime wishes that I could just be on holiday for a long time and so is my friends, then we could hang out together all the time haha, but too bad things like that won't happen :P so have to treasure every moment le... umm hopefully things in the future will become better.

I guess I type this as a sign of stress release la haha, I didn't expect that during vacation I could be kind of stress and have to deal with these kind of issues as well, why does these issues always follow me... what should I do this time.

Friends are really interesting, they could support you, hang out with you and spend time with you when you're feeling lonely or have nothing to do in general. However, friends could create some stressful moment for you as well. Friendship as a relationship is such a hard thing. I still find that I'm not mature enough to deal with these kind of situation perfectly, how can I deal with some situation without my personal bias? How can I deal with these things without making myself cry? How could I deal with these things so that my friend and I both be happy at the end?

Of course no need to be too clarify, once again I failed. I added too much of my personal feeling in this friendship, and end up things don't go the way I plan. Plus things went exactly toward the worst situation I imagined. why le, why why why? Should I really give suggestion next time, if the person just do opposite of what you suggest? Is it because my friendship with him/her is still not as strong as his/her other friends? Or is it because I'm not standing on my point strong enough? I don't know if I want to listen to his/her explanation on his/her action, it might turn out to be something I don't want to hear. So what if i know the reason, can't change anything in the past.

Next I guess what be what I should do. Should I really give up this friendship I have with this person? It's been a couple years already and I could still be friends with this person, that's a rare thing for me. Of course there are people everywhere, but would I find someone that I could be as close friends with? What should I really do? I'm scared of making decision... I don't want to make a bad decision that would cost me a friend, I really don't want to lose this friend, yet I am having a hard time at the moment. How should I talk to this person? Even though I'm hurt, but if I keep it quiet, I don't think he/she would notice. Would that be the best solution?